哦，主耶稣！

终于有兼职了
可是不知道要选哪一个
还有
是否因该回去
不知道留在这里还是回去
哪一个益处较多

有一种心
要回去努力干一番
让未完成的事可以完成
也曾经跟主要
可是不知道要如何作
应该努力传福音多鼓励人就可以了吧

主啊
虽然不知道以后在那里
但是这几个月的时间
给我负担
而不是责任
兴起风来吹我
云来覆蔽我
就是你宝贵的看顾和同在

圣徒来访

这星期有从中国福建永安，诗巫和印尼来的圣徒来相调，所以这一两天就开车载送他们。昨天晚上就有爱宴相调。

今天陪印尼的圣徒在亚庇市区逛逛。早上在会所先有交通相调，中午就带他们出去，到了傍晚再送他们回会所和接待家休息，然后再带他们用晚餐，最后就上机场。

在过程中，因为我不会说印尼话（原来印尼话和马来语是有相当的差别），就用我有限的马来语和他们谈话，也学了一些印尼话：“弟兄姐妹”我们说“dikbang dikkak”，印尼话是“saudara saudari”；“哦，主耶稣” 我们说“O Tuan Yesus”，印尼话是“O Tuhan Yesus”（因为tuan在印尼话意即‘老师’，不是‘主’）。有一个很可爱，车子他们是说“mobil”。

陪他们用晚餐时，发现他们虽然说不同的话，可是“味道”，异象都是一样的，虽然才相处一天，我们已经亲得像一家人。哈里路亚，我们都是神家里的亲人！没有国籍的分别，只有基督是我们的人位！

送他们离开机场时，不仅要赞美神，能服事他们，是喜乐的，因为我们是好比接待基督一样。愿神祝福这班可爱的印尼圣徒。

成全训练听抄（1）

路1：37-38 因为在神，没有一句话是不可能的。马利亚说，看哪，我是主的卑女，情愿照你的话成就在我身上。

v.37 我们在神的家中，只有神的说话。祂的话说了,就没有一句话是不可能的,这该是我们的态度,因为我们是在神的家中听见神的说话。

v.38 这是马利亚最好的祷告。马利亚愿意把自己摆一边。她认识她什么都不是，只是主的卑女，情愿照主的话成就在她身上。因着这个，神可以被带进人性里。让我们在这训练里，祷告说：主啊，原你在这一次训练里，照你要成就的成就在我身上。然后，主今天要尊重我们，祂有很多话要向我们说。

太14：16-21-食饱五千的神迹。神说话，我们就给。主问我们，你们有多少。门徒说五饼二鱼，主说，拿过来。我们能给多少，主就能祝福多少，这是主祝福的原则。大专成全是“大”的，我们能给主，结果祂就望着天,祝福,就食饱五千。

徒9：15-因为这人是我所拣选的器皿。人非常重要。我们是服事人的人。我们能服事人，在于我们是怎样的人，只有某种人才愿意服事人。扫罗是怎样的人？他不是服事人的，他乃是捉拿人的人，他是“口吐威吓凶杀的话”的人。但后来他完全变了，他愿意为人乐意花上自己。他这个人已经被主制作了，因为“这人是我所拣选的器皿”。神拣选人，是要人被神充满，并且在外邦人。。。中宣扬主的名（主的名是他的人位，主自己。）宣扬就是担负主。

今天主拣选了我们，作祂的器皿,目的是要将三一神那追测不尽的丰富作到我们里面,然后我们担负主。然后主就能用我们。我们自己有什么呢？只有旧造、肉体、黑暗。感谢主，祂先来拯救我们!使我们生活在祂生命的管制下,然后祂要我们来认识祂。主自己如何，祂也要把我们作成和祂一样。

Mary has chosen the good part

All these while, when I was "working" so hard, there were voices in me saying that I am working too hard, as if nobody can do those works. Tonight through a sweet fellowship with a saint, I was finally clear about my own condition. Martha was troubled by many things, but the Lord praised Mary for she had chosen the one thing- the good part- to sit before the Lord and listen to His word.

I was just being Martha for many years in brother house. I want to speak this straight forward as a reminder to myself. Martha was serving the Lord, but she was so busy and troubled. Tomorrow I will be away joining one-month campus perfecting. Even in this very moment, this silly Martha of myself still thinking of the routine business in the brother house. Ya, may be the brothers are busy and occupied with things, and may be these are just fallen thoughts of my natural man. But these are not my works, these are the Lord's ! The saint reminded me that campus works are not mine, it belongs to the Spirit! So, just go for the training and be simple, and be Mary, who 'earned' the Lord's praise.

Brothers, sorry because I am Martha asking Marry to do her parts. "Lord, does it not matter You that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to do her part with me." Even before I am going to be away, I am still trying to tell you all to "do her part with me". But we need to sit at the Lord's feet, listen to His word.

"But the Lord answered and said to her, Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things. But there is a need of one thing, for Mary has chosen the good part, which shall not be taken away from her." (Luke 11:41-42)

O Lord Jesus, have mercy on me. How I need to be Mary.

Trust the Lord

The SPA interview is around the corner. Recently I have not been considering this matter until tonight. When I heard that graduates from other universities had sitted for the interview, I started to get anxious. I am anxious tonight. I am anxious now.

I have to say that throughtout these weeks and months, I have not gone to the Lord, and seek from the Lord which place I should work in the future. I am not desperate enough. And everytime when the saints ask me whether I will remain here, I would say that to get a place in KL is quite hard. But deep within me there is a voice saying that I am not trusting the Lord. What I'd been saying is not word of faith.

On the other hand, within me there is no clear answer yet, whether I should stay in KL or KK. Tonight I really felt the need to fellowship with my Lord. I could not see my future.

Lord, thank you for bringing me throughout these four years. At this moment, I remembered that I'd prayed to You in the past saying "Lord, accomplish what You want to accomplish in me." This was the word from a brother during a campus perfecting in the past. I was touched very much by it. Lord, in my working life, continue to bring me. Put me in a place where I can continue to love You. Although You are the one governing on the throne, but I still need to pray and fellowship with You. So that I can know which path I should choose, for I do not want to suffer loss. Lord Jesus, I love You.

Although I still do not know about the choice I should pick, I just trust that the Lord has arranged things for me.

需要有时代的转移，完全被带进神新约经纶的异象

1。 异象夺取我们；
2。 异象改变我们整个人内里的所是；
3。 异象将我们重新构成；
4。 看见异象之后，我们的生活方式就改变；我们的价值观也改变。
5。 异象叫我们脱离自己，向神疯狂；
6。 异象使我们的生活满了意义和目的。
7。 异象使我们事奉主的方式彻底翻转。
8。 异象推动我们，加力给我们。
9。 异象使我们放胆往前。
10。异象托住我们。不是我们托住异象，乃是异象托住我们。
11。异象担负我们，带我们往主所要到的地方。
12。异象使我们行动并移动；异象能使我们迁移。
13。异象给我们道路，将我们带到神的道路上。
14。异象指引我们向着神的目的而去。
15。异象管制并约束我们。
16。异象使我们忍耐。
17。异象保守我们在一道水流里。
18。异象保守我们在真正的一里。
19。那承继一切的时代异象，要将我们带到同心合意里。
20。异象把我们带到主当前的行动里。

（摘自使徒行传结晶读经第十一篇）

与我们的主倾诉

今天在上课的时候，妈妈寄了一封很供应我的sms，让我享受到主那亲切的同在。她的中文并不好，我想这是弟弟帮忙打进去的：

“我们的主虽 然大，祂却不轻看小事。你或者想，你告诉主的事，必须是顶大的，主才肯听。岂知我们的主，祂从不轻忽小的事,没有一件事，在主看来是太小不肯听的。祂都愿 意听,祂愿意听你一切的事,祂不会说你太属世,太多情。。。祂知道你的情感，祂体会你的心肠。你知道吗，在主面前，有一次的诉说，有一次的倾心，就是与祂 有多一次的亲密，多一次的认识。当这时候，你与祂这样亲切，要胜过平常的交通几百次。唯有这样，你的生命才能进步。每当你把你的难处带到主那里，告诉祂， 祂能安慰你，祂能扶助你，一个人若没有在主面前流过泪，没有将他一切苦乐的事带到主面前于祂分一分，没有将他秘密的事和主谈一谈，这样的人与主就没有亲密 的交通，没有亲密的来往。。。唯有告诉主，你才能与主更亲密。” （摘自倪柝声《十二篮》）

谢谢主那即时的话，就当我在想是否该为某些事祈求的时候，主说祂都愿意听，只管把它带到祂面前。这样，祂就把我们带到祂亲切的同在里。