需要主用身体的事来教导

早晨被主光照了一下
虽然光不很强
可是还是愿意到主面前悔改
求主像教导保罗一样
教导我关于身体的事

发现自己没有实际看见身体
因为没有能力去保爱肢体
主啊，我是不能的
有个东西叫作单独在我的里面
我唯有向你敞开
求主照着我的短缺
一一来教导我
叫我不单独
让我实际去经历什么是
“我没有你不行，你没有我也不行，这就是配搭”

“一个看见自己是肢体的人，定规保爱身体，看重
其他的肢体，也不再只看见自己的好，乃是看别人
比自己强。”

手中的事

許多人能領會身體的力量是有限的，但是沒有看見他們外面的人的力量也是有限的，所以就把他們外面的人的力量浪費了。照樣，人思想的力量也是有限的，沒有一個人能無限量的思想。人如果多注意了某件事，在思想上多花了工夫在某件事上，他就沒有力量再想到其他的事。

神需要把你外面的人打碎了，纔能用你這個外面的人。神需要把你的愛打碎了，纔能用你的愛去愛眾弟兄。我們的意志也是堅強的，不只堅強，並且是硬，非常硬。裏面的人需要用意志，卻尋不到意志，因為意志在那裏單獨行動，意志已經有了牠手中的事。

神的靈沒有法子從我們的靈裏出來，因為我們外面的人已經都滿了，已經都有了手中的事。必須求神憐憫我們，給我們外面的人有一個破碎，讓裏面的人有路可以出來。這樣，裏面的人就有意志可用，就有思想可用，就有情感可用。

我們一切的遭遇都是有意義的，一切的遭遇都是有神的安排的；沒有一個基督徒的事是偶然的，是沒有神的安排的。我們必須服在神的安排之下。神對付我們，破碎我們這個人，讓靈能出來，叫我們能使用我們的靈，這是按著神的律，不是按著我們的禱告。一個律不能因禱告而被改變。

一切這樣的禱告都沒有用，更好是把這樣的禱告停止，向神說，『神，我伏在你面前。』許多時候，我們求祝福的禱告都是攔阻。我們要求祂的光照，要學習服在祂的手下，要順服這個律。這個順服就是祝福。

(人的破碎與靈的出來-3. 手中的事)

哦，主耶稣！

终于有兼职了
可是不知道要选哪一个
还有
是否因该回去
不知道留在这里还是回去
哪一个益处较多

有一种心
要回去努力干一番
让未完成的事可以完成
也曾经跟主要
可是不知道要如何作
应该努力传福音多鼓励人就可以了吧

主啊
虽然不知道以后在那里
但是这几个月的时间
给我负担
而不是责任
兴起风来吹我
云来覆蔽我
就是你宝贵的看顾和同在

圣徒来访

这星期有从中国福建永安，诗巫和印尼来的圣徒来相调，所以这一两天就开车载送他们。昨天晚上就有爱宴相调。

今天陪印尼的圣徒在亚庇市区逛逛。早上在会所先有交通相调，中午就带他们出去，到了傍晚再送他们回会所和接待家休息，然后再带他们用晚餐，最后就上机场。

在过程中，因为我不会说印尼话（原来印尼话和马来语是有相当的差别），就用我有限的马来语和他们谈话，也学了一些印尼话：“弟兄姐妹”我们说“dikbang dikkak”，印尼话是“saudara saudari”；“哦，主耶稣” 我们说“O Tuan Yesus”，印尼话是“O Tuhan Yesus”（因为tuan在印尼话意即‘老师’，不是‘主’）。有一个很可爱，车子他们是说“mobil”。

陪他们用晚餐时，发现他们虽然说不同的话，可是“味道”，异象都是一样的，虽然才相处一天，我们已经亲得像一家人。哈里路亚，我们都是神家里的亲人！没有国籍的分别，只有基督是我们的人位！

送他们离开机场时，不仅要赞美神，能服事他们，是喜乐的，因为我们是好比接待基督一样。愿神祝福这班可爱的印尼圣徒。

成全训练听抄（1）

路1：37-38 因为在神，没有一句话是不可能的。马利亚说，看哪，我是主的卑女，情愿照你的话成就在我身上。

v.37 我们在神的家中，只有神的说话。祂的话说了,就没有一句话是不可能的,这该是我们的态度,因为我们是在神的家中听见神的说话。

v.38 这是马利亚最好的祷告。马利亚愿意把自己摆一边。她认识她什么都不是，只是主的卑女，情愿照主的话成就在她身上。因着这个，神可以被带进人性里。让我们在这训练里，祷告说：主啊，原你在这一次训练里，照你要成就的成就在我身上。然后，主今天要尊重我们，祂有很多话要向我们说。

太14：16-21-食饱五千的神迹。神说话，我们就给。主问我们，你们有多少。门徒说五饼二鱼，主说，拿过来。我们能给多少，主就能祝福多少，这是主祝福的原则。大专成全是“大”的，我们能给主，结果祂就望着天,祝福,就食饱五千。

徒9：15-因为这人是我所拣选的器皿。人非常重要。我们是服事人的人。我们能服事人，在于我们是怎样的人，只有某种人才愿意服事人。扫罗是怎样的人？他不是服事人的，他乃是捉拿人的人，他是“口吐威吓凶杀的话”的人。但后来他完全变了，他愿意为人乐意花上自己。他这个人已经被主制作了，因为“这人是我所拣选的器皿”。神拣选人，是要人被神充满，并且在外邦人。。。中宣扬主的名（主的名是他的人位，主自己。）宣扬就是担负主。

今天主拣选了我们，作祂的器皿,目的是要将三一神那追测不尽的丰富作到我们里面,然后我们担负主。然后主就能用我们。我们自己有什么呢？只有旧造、肉体、黑暗。感谢主，祂先来拯救我们!使我们生活在祂生命的管制下,然后祂要我们来认识祂。主自己如何，祂也要把我们作成和祂一样。

Mary has chosen the good part

All these while, when I was "working" so hard, there were voices in me saying that I am working too hard, as if nobody can do those works. Tonight through a sweet fellowship with a saint, I was finally clear about my own condition. Martha was troubled by many things, but the Lord praised Mary for she had chosen the one thing- the good part- to sit before the Lord and listen to His word.

I was just being Martha for many years in brother house. I want to speak this straight forward as a reminder to myself. Martha was serving the Lord, but she was so busy and troubled. Tomorrow I will be away joining one-month campus perfecting. Even in this very moment, this silly Martha of myself still thinking of the routine business in the brother house. Ya, may be the brothers are busy and occupied with things, and may be these are just fallen thoughts of my natural man. But these are not my works, these are the Lord's ! The saint reminded me that campus works are not mine, it belongs to the Spirit! So, just go for the training and be simple, and be Mary, who 'earned' the Lord's praise.

Brothers, sorry because I am Martha asking Marry to do her parts. "Lord, does it not matter You that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to do her part with me." Even before I am going to be away, I am still trying to tell you all to "do her part with me". But we need to sit at the Lord's feet, listen to His word.

"But the Lord answered and said to her, Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things. But there is a need of one thing, for Mary has chosen the good part, which shall not be taken away from her." (Luke 11:41-42)

O Lord Jesus, have mercy on me. How I need to be Mary.

Trust the Lord

The SPA interview is around the corner. Recently I have not been considering this matter until tonight. When I heard that graduates from other universities had sitted for the interview, I started to get anxious. I am anxious tonight. I am anxious now.

I have to say that throughtout these weeks and months, I have not gone to the Lord, and seek from the Lord which place I should work in the future. I am not desperate enough. And everytime when the saints ask me whether I will remain here, I would say that to get a place in KL is quite hard. But deep within me there is a voice saying that I am not trusting the Lord. What I'd been saying is not word of faith.

On the other hand, within me there is no clear answer yet, whether I should stay in KL or KK. Tonight I really felt the need to fellowship with my Lord. I could not see my future.

Lord, thank you for bringing me throughout these four years. At this moment, I remembered that I'd prayed to You in the past saying "Lord, accomplish what You want to accomplish in me." This was the word from a brother during a campus perfecting in the past. I was touched very much by it. Lord, in my working life, continue to bring me. Put me in a place where I can continue to love You. Although You are the one governing on the throne, but I still need to pray and fellowship with You. So that I can know which path I should choose, for I do not want to suffer loss. Lord Jesus, I love You.

Although I still do not know about the choice I should pick, I just trust that the Lord has arranged things for me.